Thursday, February 19, 2009
This is not going to be a happy post. I was very excited to be going to visit the birthing center at Wesley Medical Center yesterday. I had talked to a nurse on the phone and what she told me was very encouraging. When I got to the hospital, it was a different story all together. I have in my mind the way I want my birth do go. I do not want very much medical intervention. I want a very natural and low key birth. I do not want an epidural or IV of any sort. I want to be free to move around as I want. I want to be able to freely hydrate myself as I feel fit. I want a whirlpool to manage my pain with. I want anyone who wants to be in the room with me there with me. I don't want to be hooked up to a bunch of machines. I have not chosen all the options half heartily. I have put a lot of thought and research into all the chooses that I make. There is no one on this earth that would care more about my unborn children than me. I think about what is best for them and myself. I am very discouraged with all the questions and unsupportive people. I am discouraged that as a society we have gotten away from what a natural process that birth is. IT IS NOT A MEDICAL PROCEDURE PEOPLE!!! It is a natural act of God! I just want to be able to have my baby the way I want to and where I want to! Those are the two things that are clashing right now. I don't want to give birth in a hospital because I can't do it the way I want to do it. I can't give birth in a birthing center, which would support my birth, because there is not one within 2 hours of where I live. I don't want to drive 2+ hours to give birth while I'm in labor. I also don't want to give birth at my house but it looks like that is going to be my only option. At least I only live 2 miles from the hospital if something does go wrong. That option is making more sense to me everyday. At least then me and everyone else will be comfortable. I don't know I'm just very discouraged right now.