We have 9 days till Jordyn gets here. I had a doctors appointment this last Tuesday. My cervix is still closed. She said that if there was absolutely no change at my next appointment, this coming Tuesday. Then she would not be able to induce. She said that with the way I have been progressing, we shouldn't have a problem inducing on the 25th. I may just have to go into the hospital the 24th at 8 pm to get my cervix softened and ready for the induction. She will not induce me early if she thinks that it may not work and would end up in a C-section. She wants to avoid that at all cost.
There has been so much that I need to do but I just have not felt like doing it. I've been very emotional, which I'm sure is all the hormones. I have read every pregnancy book I can get my hand on and birth book but I haven't read much about babies. I got a little panicky the other day realizing that I don't know anything about babies. I know basic stuff but I don't know much. She's going to be here in 9 days.
I also feel so alone. Anthony has been working SO much during this pregnancy that I feel like I'm doing it all by myself. Found out today, Robin is probably not going to be here when we come home from the hospital. I've never done this before and there is not going to be anyone around that has. Anthony said that it will be fine he know what to do but he was just a kid when his brother and sister were born. I guess this is what we get for trying to live our own lives without any help from others. I guess like everything else in life I'll just pull up my britches and do it.