This doctor's appointment was a little depressing. I know that you shouldn't worry about weight when you are pregnant. I haven't restricted my eating in anyway, nor would I but I'm a woman and have always had a problem with gaining weight. I now weigh 149 lbs and I still have two weeks to go.
Pregnancy has really not been all that I envisioned it to be. It hasn't been terrible but not the fairy tale that I have heard about and seen with other women. The one thing I was looking forward to was my birth! I know that sounds crazy most women look forward to the pregnancy and dread the birth! I knew what I wanted and had been planning my birth for almost two years! Well that is not going to happen either! I wanted a completely unmediated birth. I knew that complication may arise and that not be possible and I was preparing myself for that. I was even preparing myself that if she was not to arrive by the 29th we would need to induce. Now we are planning an induce for the 25th. So really I may not ever go into labor. I will certainly try to go into labor naturally but if not it will be the 25th. I don't really know any details except for that because I didn't ask. I was shocked that my doctor would suggest this but she did and told me to think about it.
The reason for this date is A) School starts back the 18th of August and I want as much time as I can getting Jordyn use to breastfeeding before I introduce a bottle to her. I feel I will be rushed as it is to get her to bottle feed. B) My doctor goes on vacation for a week the 30th of July, day before I am due. We don't want to wait because it could be harmful to mine and Jordyn's health to wait till she gets back.
Like I said, this is not how I envisioned my labor or birth but I am okay, not over joyed but okay, with it. There are people who have gone in been induce and vaginally delivered without a problem. Its the other cases where mother ends up with a c-section that I am worried about. If you don't know by now, I hate needles, cutting open or just anything gross and bloody. I have two weeks to calm myself and get use to this idea along with all the things I've been putting off!