catch up

Hey everyone! I am sure most of you know what is going on with our lives right now. I have a webpage set up to keep everyone update about Jordyn's recovery. www.caringbridge.org/visit/jordynewebb

I am going to be updating this blog a little more often now. This is where I will update about me, anthony, jordyn and in general the emotional aspect of life. I don't like putting on jordyn's page how i feel and everything going on in our lives.

This has been an emotional roller coaster ride. I had no idea 4 months ago what we would go through. I can't believe that this semester is almost over and I'm probably going to pass! My goal was just to make it. Taking everything just one day at a time has helped a lot. I have done very little thinking and planning for the future lately.

I am so proud of Jordyn! She has done such a great job fighting for her life. We are so close to getting her home. I have found out just how great the people in our lives are. We may not have a lot of family close by but God has blessed us with friends that have become family!

I know this is short but I will update more later just mainly wanted to say hey and I'm getting back to myself!

Days since Birth

Sorry it's taken me so long to publish about her birth. I have had a rougher time recovering from the c/s than I thought I would. Today is the first day that I actually don't have much pain.

Jordyn had been doing really good nursing until a few days ago. She got some reflux and real bad gas. Yesterday all she wanted to do was sleep so after much crying and trying to force her to eat, we started feeding her through a medicine dropper. We managed to get enough breastmilk down her that she is at least latching on and sucking a little today. I put Anthony in charge of feeding from the dropper, which means I got sleep some last night. With getting a little more sleep last night, I feel better today.

At her two day appointment, Thursday 7/29, she weighed 6 lbs 10 oz. We went back to the doctor this past Monday, 8/2, about the reflux issues, and she weighed 6 lbs 14 oz. She has probably dropped down from that since she wouldn't eat very much. She is holding her head up a little bit and she watches us more.

We made a trip to BC Monday to visit Nannie & Granddaddy. They are just tickled pink about her! Aunt Andrea & Aunt Liss got to hold her too while we were visiting. Depending how I feel I may go stay with Nannie the weekend that Anthony goes back to work. I don't remember much from the hospital on Sunday but I do remember Nannie taking care of me while I was sick. Being an adult and away from family, you tend to forget how good it feels for your mom to take care of you. Nannie has always been there to take care of me but I'm usually to independent to let her. It felt really good to be taken care of in the hospital by her!

The Birth Story!

Jordyn Elizabeth Webb was born July 25, 2010 @ 8:03 am! She weighed 6 lbs 13 oz and was 18.5 in long! She is absolutely perfect in every way!

Saturday Night:

We went to the hospital about 8:30 pm. It took about an hour to get all the paper work done. When they hooked me up to the monitor it showed that I was having minor contractions but were frequent. The dr. on call came in to see how I was doing, because she saw the contractions on the monitor. On Tuesday, I was not dilated at all. The doctor on call checked me and I was at 1 cm. She went ahead and gave me the Cervidil. I was instructed that I could eat until 12 midnight. I was also given Ambion to sleep. I called Nannie to let her know I was okay and at the hospital at about 10 pm. Field and Keri came by to bring us a snack, Danny Dan's cheese fries! Shortly after scarfing them down, I got sick. I was then given Finagrin and it made me very jumpy and couldn't sleep. They came in about midnight or little after to take out the Cervidil because Jordyn was having trouble dealing with the contractions I was having. I finally got to sleep about 2 am. We were still expecting to be induced in the morning so we didn't call anyone to come on the to hospital.

Sunday:

I woke up about 5:30 am. by 6:00 am the doctor still had not been in to start the induction. I sent Anthony out to the nurse desk to see if they would know when she would be around to start the induction. The nurse told him she'd be in and talk to us about it. When the nurse came in, she explained that they were going to wait on my doctor to get there to see what she wanted to do. My doctor was coming on at 7 am and the doctor on call that night didn't want to start the induction because Jordyn's HB was dropping after the contractions. Dr. Kot, my obgyn, came in about 7:15am and told us that we were going to have to have a c-section. She knew how much I wanted to have a natural birth. She told us that we could labor for a while if I wanted to but that I would end up in a C/S. I told her that it was okay we would just do the c/s. I asked if there was enough time to call my family and have them come up to the hospital and she said yes. I got two phone calls in before the nurse came in to prep me for the section.

The section was not like I thought it was going to be. I was really tired from the night before and the spinal block did not completely take. I felt a lot of pressure from them pushing on me and it was really uncomfortable. After they got Jordyn out and showed her to me, they gave me something to knock me out. If they had asked, I would have told them to knock me out for the whole thing but anyways. The birth did not go the way that I had wanted but she is here and healthy.

So Excited!!!

So We had our last prenatal dr appointment yesterday. I gained a total of 21 lbs. My blood pressure was up a little but not out of normal range (115/69). We are so excited! We were instructed to go to the hospital at 8:00 pm on Saturday night. They are going to give me a medicine to ripen my cervix. This could start start contractions and if not then I will be given Potcin at 5:30 am Sunday morning. With first time mother, labor typically last about 12 -16 hours. So the doctor said not to expect to deliver until 5:30 pm - 12 midnight. So Sunday is going to be a very long day! It will all be worth it though! I am still planning on trying to labor with out pain medication. My original goal was to go completely unmedicated but things changed. I still would like to give it a good try to do it with out the epidural. My dr said that it is my birth and we would do it my way! I am sure that I will end up getting it but I want to give it a good try without it!

So with that said, today is going to be a very busy day! I think my nesting instinct is kicking in! I have been giving Anthony orders all morning on how and what to clean!!! :) I have been working on the shade for Jordyn's room. I will finish it today. We are also both going to get haircuts before she gets here. So So much to do but we will get it all done!

Our Address is 310 N. 19th Ave. Hattiesburg, MS 39401 for anyone who wants to come visit and see our new baby girl after we come home!!

Running out of time!

We have 9 days till Jordyn gets here. I had a doctors appointment this last Tuesday. My cervix is still closed. She said that if there was absolutely no change at my next appointment, this coming Tuesday. Then she would not be able to induce. She said that with the way I have been progressing, we shouldn't have a problem inducing on the 25th. I may just have to go into the hospital the 24th at 8 pm to get my cervix softened and ready for the induction. She will not induce me early if she thinks that it may not work and would end up in a C-section. She wants to avoid that at all cost.

There has been so much that I need to do but I just have not felt like doing it. I've been very emotional, which I'm sure is all the hormones. I have read every pregnancy book I can get my hand on and birth book but I haven't read much about babies. I got a little panicky the other day realizing that I don't know anything about babies. I know basic stuff but I don't know much. She's going to be here in 9 days.

I also feel so alone. Anthony has been working SO much during this pregnancy that I feel like I'm doing it all by myself. Found out today, Robin is probably not going to be here when we come home from the hospital. I've never done this before and there is not going to be anyone around that has. Anthony said that it will be fine he know what to do but he was just a kid when his brother and sister were born. I guess this is what we get for trying to live our own lives without any help from others. I guess like everything else in life I'll just pull up my britches and do it.

Depressing!

This doctor's appointment was a little depressing. I know that you shouldn't worry about weight when you are pregnant. I haven't restricted my eating in anyway, nor would I but I'm a woman and have always had a problem with gaining weight. I now weigh 149 lbs and I still have two weeks to go.

Pregnancy has really not been all that I envisioned it to be. It hasn't been terrible but not the fairy tale that I have heard about and seen with other women. The one thing I was looking forward to was my birth! I know that sounds crazy most women look forward to the pregnancy and dread the birth! I knew what I wanted and had been planning my birth for almost two years! Well that is not going to happen either! I wanted a completely unmediated birth. I knew that complication may arise and that not be possible and I was preparing myself for that. I was even preparing myself that if she was not to arrive by the 29th we would need to induce. Now we are planning an induce for the 25th. So really I may not ever go into labor. I will certainly try to go into labor naturally but if not it will be the 25th. I don't really know any details except for that because I didn't ask. I was shocked that my doctor would suggest this but she did and told me to think about it.

The reason for this date is A) School starts back the 18th of August and I want as much time as I can getting Jordyn use to breastfeeding before I introduce a bottle to her. I feel I will be rushed as it is to get her to bottle feed. B) My doctor goes on vacation for a week the 30th of July, day before I am due. We don't want to wait because it could be harmful to mine and Jordyn's health to wait till she gets back.

Like I said, this is not how I envisioned my labor or birth but I am okay, not over joyed but okay, with it. There are people who have gone in been induce and vaginally delivered without a problem. Its the other cases where mother ends up with a c-section that I am worried about. If you don't know by now, I hate needles, cutting open or just anything gross and bloody. I have two weeks to calm myself and get use to this idea along with all the things I've been putting off!

So we had our first vaginal appointment last week. I didn't like it. Jordyn is head down but I have not started thinning yet; so we wait! I was at 35 weeks; gained 3lbs; and 1 cm. Blood pressure was 96/54 and Jordyn's HB was 154. Not much else to report on that. It was a rushed appointment. We did ask about another sonogram but Dr. Kot said there would not be another one unless we had a problem. I have started having contractions but nothing serious.

Anthony went back to Thursday morning. This hitch is harder because I want Ant here with me these last few weeks. He may get to come home for a few days tomorrow. If this storm is projected to enter the gulf Ant will have to come home for a day or two. I am really hoping this happens, I know that's bad but I miss him!

I went this weekend and spent time at the beach with the Davis Family! I enjoyed going and getting to spend time with them but came home early. There isn't much to do at the beach when you are 9 months pregnant. Kinda miserable really. I came home to finish getting things done. I think that the nesting is starting to kick in a little bit.

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